Life is a winding road of ups and downs. One minute we may be basking in the sunlight, and the next; beset by dark clouds and heavy downpour. There are moments when our zeal for God’s righteousness feels as distant as the furthest star in the night sky. Days arise when our souls, burdened by the weight of worldly woes, find even the whisper of a prayer too heavy to utter.
In these times of darkness, where our actions seem devoid of purpose and our hearts devoid of fervor, we may perceive God as a distant echo rather than the all loving and merciful Father that He truly is.
I Just Don’t Feel Like It Today…
Consider the prophet Elijah who found himself fleeing into the wilderness after his triumphant encounter on Mount Carmel. Overwhelmed by fear and despair, he was yearning for the Lord’s presence in the roar of wind, the quaking of the earth, and the blaze of fire, only to find Him in the sheer silence that followed (1 Kings 19:11-12). In these moments of silence and solitude, we are reminded that God’s presence is not contingent on the magnitude of our emotions or the visibility of our achievements.
“Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). In the stillness of our hearts, when actions feel futile and words fall short, this verse invites us to embrace the quiet assurance of God’s sovereignty. It is in the silent acknowledgment of His omnipotence that we find the strength to persevere, even when our spirits falter.
God is in the Silence
Our journey with God is not defined by the constancy of our enthusiasm but by the steadfastness of His love. Just as the seasons change, so too do the seasons of our soul, yet the Creator of all seasons remains unchanging. He who painted the first dawn, who whispered life into being, is the same God who beckons us to find solace in His eternal constancy.
In the depths of spiritual dryness, when our devotion feels like a barren field, we are invited to plant seeds of faith, watered not by our fleeting feelings but by the enduring truth of God’s word. “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” (Isaiah 40:31). This promise is a beacon of hope, illuminating our path when the way forward is obscured by the shadows of doubt.
Choosing to seek God, even when our hearts are heavy and our spirits weary, is an act of defiant faith. It is a declaration that our reliance on God transcends the realm of emotion and circumstance. This choice may require a great amount of our will, but it is the bridge that spans the chasm between our desolation and God’s abundance.
As we navigate the wilderness of spiritual lethargy, let us cling to the knowledge that our feelings, as transient as the morning mist, cannot alter the immutable nature of God. He is the anchor in our tempest and the light in our darkness. He is the source of living waters in our desert. When the act of seeking Him feels like an insurmountable task, let us remember that it is not by our strength but by His grace that we are drawn into His presence.
Whenever you don’t feel like it, when the fervor of your faith flickers and fades, remember that you stand at the threshold of choice. Will you envelop yourself in the cloak of despair, or will you step forward into the embrace of an unchanging God? In this choice lies the path to renewal, where the wellspring of God’s grace revives the parched soil of our souls, nurturing our faith until it blooms anew in the garden of His eternal love.
Prayer for God’s Presence
Heavenly Father, in the quietude of my soul where words seem scarce and fervor feels distant, I seek Your presence. In moments when my spirit wavers and my heart grows weary, remind me of Your unending faithfulness. Teach me to find You not only in the clamor of life’s victories but in the silence of its struggles.
Grant me the grace to be still and know You are God, to recognize Your whisper in the midst of life’s storms and Your gentle guidance when the path ahead seems unclear. Help me to understand that my journey with You is not measured by the height of my emotions but by the depth of my trust in Your unchanging nature.
In the quiet moments when prayer feels like a distant echo, and when I don’t feel “energized” to carry on your work, draw me closer to Your heart. Renew my strength, rekindle my faith, and restore my soul that I may soar on wings like eagles, run and not grow weary, walk and not be faint.
I choose to seek You, Lord, not as a fleeting feeling, but as a steadfast commitment. I will find the peace and purpose my soul longs for. Amen.
