There are moments in life when prayer feels less like confident praise and more like a quiet survival. You come before the Lord not with clarity or answers, but with a heart that feels thin, tired, and unsure how much longer it can hold together. Maybe you have whispered words at night that sound more like sighs than prayers, or sat in silence because even hope feels heavy. And yet, something in you still turns toward God and you hold on to His promise.
Through this song, “Lord, I’m Not Okay”, we confront our deepest fears and vulnerability, our doubts, our worries in the face of the Lord. It is a cry of desperation, but also the quiet acknowledgement that we have not given up. We will wait upon the Lord for He is working His miracles in our life.
Full Lyrics
[Intro]
Lord, I don’t come with answers tonight
Only what’s left of my heart
If staying here is all I have
Then let me feel your gentle light
[Verse 1]
Some days I wake with a weight on my chest
Prayers on my lips, but I’m out of breath
I planned my life, but it fell apart
I still believe, Lord, but faith feels dark
[Pre-Chorus]
I thought by now I’d be stronger than this
But all I have is a fragile yes
So here I am, with open hands
Not walking away, not turning back
[Chorus]
Lord, I’m not okay, but I’m still here
Still calling Your name through the doubt and fear
I don’t have peace, but I’m standing near
Lord, I’m not okay, but I’m still here
[Verse 2]
I’ve watched the answers come for everyone else
While my silence just echoes inside myself
I’ve smiled through pain I don’t understand
Tried to trust what I couldn’t see in Your hand
[Chorus]
Lord, I’m not okay, but I’m still here
Still lifting my eyes though I feel unclear
I’m tired of running, tired of fear
Lord, I’m not okay, but I’m still here
[Bridge]
If all that I have is breath and a cry
Then take it, Jesus, it’s Yours tonight
I won’t let go, I won’t disappear
Your work's finished, so I’m still here
[Final Chorus]
Lord, I’m not okay, but I’m still here
Still rooted in promise, not ruled by fear
I will wait on You, year by year
Lord, I’m not okay, but I’m still here
[Outro]
I will wait on the Lord
I will stand and believe
Lord, I am here
Still Here, Even When Faith Feels Fragile
So many faithful hearts carry a weight they never expected. Plans collapse. Healing delays. Answers seem to arrive everywhere except where you are. You may still believe in God, yet faith feels dim, like a candle struggling to stay lit. Scripture reminds us that the Lord does not despise this offering. “A broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise” (Psalms 51:19).
To remain before God when prayer feels dry is itself an act of love. Staying is a form of trust, even when trust feels weak. The Lord sees not only what you feel, but what you choose and your choice to remain matters deeply to Him.
When Waiting Feels Longer Than You Expected
It is painful to watch others receive the answers you have been praying for, while your own silence echoes on. You may wonder what you are doing wrong, or whether your prayers are somehow insufficient. But waiting is not evidence of God’s absence. Often, it is where His quiet work is most real.
Jesus knows this place intimately. In the Garden of Gethsemane, He prayed with fear and anguish, asking that the cup pass from Him. At this point in time, Christ was not okay. The weight of certain death and suffering bore down hard upon Him. Yet He did not remained rooted in His trust of the Lord. “My soul is sorrowful even to death,” He said, and still He entrusted Himself to God (Matthew 26:38).
When all you have left is breath and a cry, that is enough. God does not wait for polished prayers. He receives the prayer that says, “Take this, Jesus. It’s Yours.” Remaining before Him is not weakness; it is fidelity.
Rooted in Promise, Not Ruled by Fear
There is a quiet courage in continuing to stand near God even when peace has not yet arrived. You may feel tired of running, tired of fear, tired of pretending you are stronger than you are. But being “still here” means allowing God to work beneath the surface, beyond what you can see or measure.
The Lord’s work is not undone by your exhaustion. His promises do not fail because your faith feels small. “Let us not grow weary in doing good, for in due season we shall reap, if we do not lose heart” (Galatians 6:9).
Waiting year by year does not mean you are forgotten. It means God is shaping your heart to receive what only His love can give. Just that simple act of you choosing to stay, a quiet resolve to remain before Him, is already a prayer answered in grace.
A Closing Prayer
Lord Jesus,
I am not okay, but I am here.
I offer You my breath, my questions, my fragile yes.
Teach me how to wait without losing hope,
and how to trust even when the way feels dark.
Hold me close, and let Your gentle light remain.
Amen.
